All Over the Place6:02 PM
Hmm. Where to start?
If you're a frequent reader of my blog, I would like to apologize. I'm sorry that my posts have been so non-existent for the past couple of months.
The last little while has been quite weird for me, mentally speaking. I've been doing a lot of "soul searching", and have been struggling with finding inspiration in almost all aspects of my life.
Frequent thoughts I've been having include:
- "What's the point of continuing my blog?"
- "I should spend my spare time doing something more worthwhile."
- "But if I enjoy it, isn't it worthwhile?"
- "Do people think I'm shallow because I blog about makeup? Should I care that they do?"
As my boyfriend can attest, I have spent far too much time overthinking these things. I've been trying to find out where my passions lie, and that is proving to be far more difficult than I had hoped.
Meanwhile, while going through all of these up-and-down thoughts, I decided to give the world of YouTube a try. I figured that if I had lost the inspiration to write blog posts, I may feel more inspired to express myself through a different medium. And after a few weeks of giving it a try, I've decided it's just not for me. I find myself feeling very uncomfortable expressing myself on video. And I feel that if it's obvious to me that I'm not enjoying myself, it's probably obvious to anybody who would be watching.
But as they say, every cloud has an unexpected silver lining.
Although my brief moment with YouTube may be on pause, I think I have found my writing/photography mojo once again. I am feeling much better about spending time on my blog, and this time, I'm going to try and do it 100% for me. I'm not going to focus on getting pageviews, I'm going write about what I feel like writing about in the moment, and hope my readers will come along with me.
Thank you so much for putting up with my wishy-washyness for the past little while, but I guess everybody goes through times of uncertainty, right?